Why i Never post.... A memoir by Emily Hammerstad.
1. I feel cruddy, oh so cruddy, i feel cruddy and ruddy and gay. Well not really. I don't feel gay. but i do feel cruddy.
2. The Doctors would rather go on cruises then call me back to let me know that my results were NOT normal. They would rather just leave me hanging then to tell me that I have a problem that should be taken care of. So i am left confined to my bedroom most of the time. Unless i can find the energy to move to the couch.
3. The magic of being a parent has finally whiped me out. I'm this close to giving up. and why? you might ask. because my son looks like I beat him for a living. He has road rash all over his face not to mention the other scars and bruises from being a boy.
4. I had a yard sale. It consumed any shred of life I had left in me. But GREAT news. I found my quilt that had been missing for months. i think it's been gone since February and we just found it.
5. And lastly, on the list of things that have consumed my life lately. I accidentally overdosed on pain killers. I sound like a real addict. but I'm not and that's why the overdose. I only take half a dose as it makes me so sick and so when i cut my pill in half i wasn't aware that half a pill in this particular prescription was actually a full dose of what i was used to. AHHHHHH!!!!!! Let me tell you. DO NOT EVER DO THIS! I was in the worst condition ever. I wish i wasn't in pain so I didn't need the dang pills in the first place. Needless to say. i am avoiding drugs at this point. I'm going to live with the pain. It's a much safer outcome.
And that's it. I'm finally coming clean about my health issues and saying, "Yes, I am sick. sorry i never call you back. Sorry i never answer to begin with. Sorry that i've been out of all of your life's and you've had no idea why I have just avoided you. Well, I'm not avoiding you, but I'm sorry if you ever thought i was."
if all of the sudden you see Kari running and stumbling all over herself, she's obviously found something that she' knows you're gonna take away. But YEAH!!! we finnaly found the missing food that had been haunting us for days. still don't know where she found it though. Isaiah and Kari must've worked some kinda deal out. "I'll give you food, and you let me pull on your ears without biting me. deal?"