Why i Never post.... A memoir by Emily Hammerstad.

Why i Never post.... A memoir by Emily Hammerstad.

1. I feel cruddy, oh so cruddy, i feel cruddy and ruddy and gay. Well not really. I don't feel gay. but i do feel cruddy.

2. The Doctors would rather go on cruises then call me back to let me know that my results were NOT normal. They would rather just leave me hanging then to tell me that I have a problem that should be taken care of. So i am left confined to my bedroom most of the time. Unless i can find the energy to move to the couch.

3. The magic of being a parent has finally whiped me out. I'm this close to giving up. and why? you might ask. because my son looks like I beat him for a living. He has road rash all over his face not to mention the other scars and bruises from being a boy.

4. I had a yard sale. It consumed any shred of life I had left in me. But GREAT news. I found my quilt that had been missing for months. i think it's been gone since February and we just found it.

5. And lastly, on the list of things that have consumed my life lately. I accidentally overdosed on pain killers. I sound like a real addict. but I'm not and that's why the overdose. I only take half a dose as it makes me so sick and so when i cut my pill in half i wasn't aware that half a pill in this particular prescription was actually a full dose of what i was used to. AHHHHHH!!!!!! Let me tell you. DO NOT EVER DO THIS! I was in the worst condition ever. I wish i wasn't in pain so I didn't need the dang pills in the first place. Needless to say. i am avoiding drugs at this point. I'm going to live with the pain. It's a much safer outcome.

And that's it. I'm finally coming clean about my health issues and saying, "Yes, I am sick. sorry i never call you back. Sorry i never answer to begin with. Sorry that i've been out of all of your life's and you've had no idea why I have just avoided you. Well, I'm not avoiding you, but I'm sorry if you ever thought i was."

Having a bad day? how bought a bad week? could it possibly feel like a lifetime since the last time things were okay?...... Well, no worries because i hear ya. I'm been struggling with a lot lately and my sweet oh so wonderful hubby came home two days ago with the best "pick me up" EVER!


May i present THESE!!!!!
I call them my "make everything feel all better" shoes. He said, and i quote,"I know you're really overwhelmed and scared right now and I just wanted you to at least feel like you're pretty, cuz you are."

So if you're having a bad day, go... buy yourself something that makes you feel all better and remember, vanity is only 1 of our many great qualities!

Seriously though, the shoes make me feel better when I see them or wear them. I wonder if they're magically enhanced with something. Just something to think about.

What have i been up to lately? TONS!!!!! This is my house.



and this is my house after the copious amounts of work i have done on it.

1. New paint, obviously
2. New trim
3. I fixed the pole and repainted it too.
4. I took out that stupid bush and made a new garden area
5. Got new light fixtures
6. and lastly new house numbers.


It was a ton of work and thus, i have been a blogger lacking in blogs.

While Nick's Family came to visit we went for a visit to the DINO museum.

It was a lot of fun.

Some of the dino's weren't too happy we were there.

But Nick told them what was up.

And apparently became a dino in the process

My 1 year old.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

My baby's not a baby anymore.....He had a "Mommy's lil Monster" party. My sister made the cake.... so cute.


He loved the cake. He ate it from the inside out. He dug a little tunnel in and just had a blast.
He was very willing to share.

And very excited to get messy.

New BABY in town....

My friend Stephanie just had a bouncing bundle of joy that weighed a whopping 9lbs 4 Ounces.

Here's a few pics of the cutie.


Congrats Devin and Stephanie, we're so excited for you.

so...as some of you know, my son is a maniac. He recently got stitches and I thought i would share.


That's them. the tiny little blue threads above his eye. It's right in his eyelid. what an awkward place.


anywho we got them out today. I'm very nervous for the future though. He's not even 1 yet... alright so his birthday is on Saturday but still. Couldn't he have waited a few more YEARS before he decided to start making ER visits.